January 2010
21 posts
Behind my mask.
I wish I could just end my life like that. I’m fucked up. I hate to wear a mask, always acting in front of everybody that I am happy, where I feel so empty and terrible deep down inside. I am not as happy as you see. I feel that I don’t deserve to go to heaven, don’t deserve to be forgiven by the Lord. I feel useless. I’m just so childish where I don’t even know why....
A LITTLE HARDCORE FOR ME.
Yesterday I had my elective module which is Physical fitness. We had this 2.4km test run and played frisbee. I nearly died of SOB and chest pain, but well, manage to run for 19.54 mins. LOL. At least I improved, better than my 30 mins during Secondary 4. :DDD (I literally walked throughout!)
Frisbee was kinda fun but I was too sissy. I dodged the spaceship frisbee for like many many times, I suck...
What's wrong with me?
Why is she ignoring me? She has been behaving this way since after Christmas, when I dirtied her pillow. I felt terrible because I was so drunk that I didn’t know what the fuck I was doing. Came back to school and she hasn’t really talked to me. I wish that she is ignoring not because she hates me but because she is stressed with her projects.
Why am I born like that? I’m...
Happy birthday Bestie! I don’t know what to say becuase I ony have this for you: I love you, and we’re gonna be friends for as long as possible.
Sometimes I regret for knowing you, because you are always breaking my heart. Hope that you are happy with M, and your friends!
(I’m kinda jealous and upset when you kissed Jane and Annie..)
Just know that God will bless you and I...
“I will not leave you or forsake you.”
– Jesus
Happy 6th anniversary!
Bernice: Happy 6th anniversary! We've known each other for 6 years!
Me: Awww!! Happy 6 years anniversary too!
Me: I thought you sent to the wrong person! Haha.
Bernice: I'm 5 mins early! 2nd jan what! The day we've known each other! Talking bout 5566!
Me: Mmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!! Yess! Lol omg WTF!??
OMG, wtf, haha! Can't believe I'm telling you all these. Yes, this is how I met Bernice, by striking up a conversation about 5566! I still remember I was wondering who will be my best friend, and Bernice came talking to me like "Hi, I'm Bernice..." It was when she started saying that she usually don't sleep early on Monday because she stays up late to watch Westside story (it's by 5566!!), I decided that she is my best friend because we have the same interest! Haaahh! That's really embarrassing la, we both love 5566 and always sing their songs.
Haa, time really flies.
December 2009
18 posts
